[Story] Attitude meets Arrogance – S01 E32

Read Story: SEASON 1 EPISODE 32

Jaxon’s POV

Forgive me brother for not telling you the way that I feel, I may act strong and that I don’t care but deep down my heart was bleeding…

People exaggerate, repeat and use the word I am heartbroken alot but the deepest heartbreak can’t be put into words…

Do you think that I would let the love of my life slip away from me like chaff??? To me family meant everything…

I knew everything even before it happened… Sebastian felt devastated and his heart very heavy that Ciara was going to be forced into misery…

He came to me, confessed all my brother was planning and at that moment I felt a part of me was cut off.

There is nothing worse than your brother snatching away what you love the most but you can’t do anything about it

. Among seven billion in the world, why did it have to be her??? Why the person who made me believe in love again???

I know I should have fought for her but to me my brother was way more important than the immense love I felt for Ciara…

When she came to the hotel during my meeting and suggested that I make us official, I wanted to push her away but the excitement in her eyes held me back.

I am also sorry my love for not being courageous enough to fight for you. For being selfless, I knew I was leading you to a road full of misery but I looked away…

My brother was left on the altar and the whole world mocked him

. Two months later, our dad died in a grisly accident and that’s when we lost him..I wasn’t ready to let him go through another torture, if it’s you he wanted to be happy then I had to forward you to him

The once caring and kind man saw the world as unjust and unfair. The once a upon time prince had grown a black soul full of hate and arrogance. The world took away the people he loved the most and to him that was unforgivable..

My darling Ciara, I am sorry I sacrificed you but I didn’t want him to get heartbroken or mocked once more…You mean the world to me but he is my world..

Sorry I didn’t go on with our plan and pretended to me mad at you. I should have been the shoulder you needed to lean on, your strength but everything has a price.

To make my brother happy, I had to lose you..

I thought he would change after marrying you but it seems he became more of an ice that could freeze all the volcano mountains in the world.

Maybe I should have fought for you, maybe he can’t be redeemed, maybe it was a mistake to let you go…Giving you to him is one thing but always putting you in tears is something I won’t endure….

“Carol, where is the extra key to Jordan’s room???”

“It is in your mother’s room…”

I ran up the stairs from the kitchen like a mad person into my mother’s room..There it was lying lazily in the drawer.

When I opened the door, I found her busy on her phone. She seemed relaxed…She didn’t bother to look at who was standing near the door..

One thing I love about my baby, she never let misfortunes get to her. She is always the b-tch with the attitude..

“I think this is the best time to get that hug…” I retorted.

“Jaxon???” She smiled and I threw my arms around her..

“How are you????” I asked but instead of answering she hugged me a little bit tighter before finally releasing me…

“How are you???” She cupped my face,”Do you know how we were worried???Why did you drink like that???”

Here comes my second mother…

“Do you wanna get out of here, It feels suffocating..” I replied…

“I thought you would never ask. Let me get ready…”

When she got into the bathroom, I looked around the room it was a hot mess..I bet they had a huge fight since Jordan is the most tidiest man I know..

I went back to my room and also got ready..After an hour, we meet downstairs ready to go leaving our phones in our rooms….We packed some snacks, drinks and fruits to have in our hike…

In the car, I could feel a sad energy.. We had a fire for each other inside us that was enough to burn the whole world down but we had to hide it..

“Does he beat you???” I don’t know why that was the first question in my mind. If I ever found out, he beats her I would have to forger he was my brother..

“He might be arrogant and cold but never violent…” Her eyes were still stuck on the window…

Okay was all I could say…

“But I am sorry……”

Before she could say what she wanted to say and get me all emotional I butted in,”It’s okay you don’t have to say it.” I smiled..

“But….”

“Ciara, let’s not talk about it….” I placed my hand on her knee and I could see a small smile playing on her lips…

“Thank you…”

The car was filled with the awkward silence again. I know I should stay away but I need to be with her for the last time..

Say goodbye to her, who was taken away and maybe then I would stop fooling myself I have moved on and practically move on..She was no longer mine and that was the bitter truth.

I didn’t care what my brother will do when he finds out I took her out of the room all that mattered is just one day with her before she becomes only a memory…

“We are here….”

“Is this not the same place you brought me when I started working for you???” She asked looking around and I nodded…

“Why did you bring me here Jaxon??? Can’t you see am broken enough???” Tears were balancing in her eyes.

Maybe I want you to never forget me or I just want to see you for the last time..I know it was selfish of me but I can’t help it..Maybe where it begun was the best place to end it all.

“Maybe it will help me move on…”

“I don’t want you to move on…” She sobbed and I looked away before getting out of the car..

I needed to control myself, she no longer belonged to me…

I took everything out of the car and went to open the door for her when I saw her quickly wipe tears from her eyes…

I felt sadness overwhelm my entire body, leaving my heart arching and my stomach empty…

“Let’s go!!!” I reached out my hand for her, at first she was hesitant but she took it…

I walked her beside the river, where I laid the mat and placed our basket and the guitar on…

Was I fool to say I felt privileged to have my heart broken by her????

“Ciara, this is our reality.

. We don’t know what would happen later when Jordan finds out what we did. All we need to do is have fun now…”

“I didn’t ask for this!!!” She yelled and I looked down..

“I wanted you,” I could feel my heart beating so fast that I was sure she could hear it when she came closer to me..

“But you married him…” I whispered..

“I had no choice Jaxon….” A seething torrent of tears begun to roll down her cheeks,”I wish I could go back to time and fix everything but I can’t…”

I tried keeping my hands to myself but I couldn’t…She needed the hug of assurity that it gets better…Yesterday I heard all the sweet things she confessed to me, I wanted to take her in my arms, kiss her tell her I also want her back but pretending to be asleep was the better option..

“Jaxon, everytime I see you slipping away I die inside.. I am better of de…” I placed a finger on her lips, “Don’t say it…Come here…”

I could feel her heart breaking as she clung to me..

My beloved, how can I ease you pain??? I wish I could take your place but all I can do is pray to the heavens to make it better..

“Cry it all out…”

“I am sorry Jaxon, I should have fixed this mess. Fought harder but I failed you…”

“You didn’t fail me, it’s just how life is. Unfair..Today we should have all the fun we can because we don’t know what tomorrow holds…” I stroked her wig…

She pulled back, wiped her tears and gave me something that looked like a smile, “Shall we???”

“No that’s my girl..”

We ate, laughed, talked about everything and anything and I could feel my heart was contended..

“Let’s play a game!!!!” She suggested.

My ancestors please let it not be truth and dare..

“What game???”

“Never have I…” She replied excitedly..

“Okay…” I stammered. I didn’t like where she was going.

“Go first…”

“Never have I kissed a guy.. “

“That’s gross, I can’t even imagine that..Okay my turn, Never have I loved someone the way I love you….”

“Never have I missed someone the way I miss you in my life…”

Why did I say that???

“Never have I wanted to kiss someone so bad…”She moved closer, our noses rubbing each other…

I wanted to pull back but I was paralysed from neck down..I had the urge to kiss those lips hungrily and make love to her like never before…

Her been close to me, made me realise that I actually craved her..That I needed her back, that I was longing for her kisses and her in my arms…”

She belongs to your world… Immediately my subconscious shouted that to me, I jumped back…Yeah, she belonged to my world Jordan…

“It’s so hot here, I need a swim…” I took off my clothes and dived into the river…

“I wanna join too…”

She took her clothes off too and dived in…It was hard to resist her body, the more she played with the water the more I wanted to pull her to my chest..

“Ciara, you are my inspiration….” I blurted out loud…

“Awww!!!! Thank you. You should write a song about me…” She chuckled throwing water on my face..

I know she understood our situation and that’s why she chose to act more calm and enjoy time with me and she could…

We played in the water, danced, swam around until evening…

“Jaxon, it’s so cold…” She shivered rubbing her arms…

“Let me make us a fire…”

I placed my leather jacket on her shoulders and lit a fire with some sticks that were lying around.

I had some camp skills and doing that was icing on the cake..

“Thank you for this, I really had fun…”

“I am happy you did..But we need to go home before your husband makes a scandal…”

I wished we would spend more time together but it was time to slap myself to reality…

“Ciara, can we go for a karaoke before heading home??? It’s not that late???” I asked and she nodded smiling…

I guess I wasn’t ready to say goodbye, I needed a little more time with her beside me…

“Thank you for choosing me, I will always remember all we did and went through…” I found myself hugging her so tight, tears burning my eyes…

“So this is goodbye???”

“Yeah Ciara, it’s goodbye…” I kissed her on the forehead avoiding her eyes because they would reflect the love inside her heart and make it hard for me to say goodbye..

“I don’t want to let you go…” She hugged me but I pulled her back,” You have to..You are married now…”

“Let’s run away Jaxon???”

“I can’t do that, I just can’t ruin both our lives. We belong here…” I took her hand, our things and walked her to the car.

When we arrived at the Karaoke club she was sad and moody but as soon as she saw some of her friends she felt better.

She danced and drank her worries away until it was time to face the wrath waiting for us at home.

I wasn’t scared of what was awaiting us but of what Jordan might do to her…

We got into the house laughing about a joke we had heard in the club until our eyes met with with Jordan’s venomous look…We both went silent at once..

Ladies and gentlemen it’s about to go down. If I don’t make it alive, tell the world I lived my best life…